I am a very weak person. I constantly go against the followings and the great gift our Risen Lord has offered to all of us. It's so strange to think beyond where we currently are in life. I don't mean in the sense of growing old and getting new jobs and children and those life issues. I can't see this point where I die and then meet our Lord. It reminds me of when Jesus refers to his Father's return and says that even he does not know on what day that will be. I have felt for a while now that If I were to expire any time soon I would be judged by our Father and thrown in too eternal suffering. I have found it is easy to put these thoughts out of my head when I am really trying to get laid. I have been abstinent for only a few days and I want so badly to go watch porn on my I Pad in the bathroom. I have let the enemy into my mind and he has corrupted me. It's strange how long I have worshiped God while really being loyal to the serpent. I ask our Lord to take my shortcomings and anything else that prevents me from being over filled by the Holy Spirit on a daily basis.
Take my explosive anger, take my devious plotting, take my lust for my fellow sisters in Christ, take my sarcastic wit and the sting it leaves on others, take my gluttonous need to constantly fill my body with poison and take the lazy life style I have grown accustomed too. With your light and love Lord all of this is possible. Please Lord direct me to those I can serve and to those who will not lead me astray. I have nothing but dust with out you Lord, thank you again!
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