my problems

There are allot of things that I am not proud of, but even worse than that are some of the things I am proud of. I love pornography and of course the real thing. I'm proud of how many drugs I can do, very shameful thing to take pride in. I'm angry allot, I'm mad at strangers walking down the street. At least 10 times a day I come up with a scenario in my head where a stranger near me insults me for no reason and this becomes an imaginary war in my head. I scream at them and some times even fight them. The thing is I would never fight anyone. I punched 1 person 10 years ago and still feel bad about it. I'm also mad allot at people who I see has wronging me. I stew allot in my own head about what these people have done to me. The last group that I am angry with are people who would consider me a friend. The problem is I might not like these people any more, I hang out with a few people because I think it's the Christian thing too do, help other. The problem is I resent these people and I also have imaginary arguments with them. I ask the Risen Lord Jesus Christ to bind Satan's influence in my life and give me the strength to love and let the past go. Thank you Lord, please pray for me.