last weekend

I did allot of drugs this last weekend, I just wanted to unwind a little and I also went to a rave. I had always enjoyed drugs, I don't care about laws, I think all that stuff is silly. When I was high on MDMA I started to think about things. I'm not sure what happened but I couldn't stop thinking about all the people I've wronged.  I also thought about serving 2 masters. I started emailing and calling people, I hit my brother up first, we had some family issues from the mid 90's that I always wanted to talk about. I called my ex girlfriend, I got her voice mail and just started crying. Were meeting next week to talk. I emailed a nice girl I had coffee with a few months before but she wasn't interested in hanging out again. It wasn't that big of deal, she wasn't really my type but she was very nice and I got a sense of strong faith. Well I never responded to her email(put it off for a day that became 4 months) and was now embarrased every time I would see here. Well I emailed her and apologized and I was excited to get a email very quickly back that was very nice. I also emailed 2 girls I had slept with who had wanted much more from me than I was willing to give. I have allot of shame for the things I have done. This is my 2nd day of sobriety, I'm praying to the Lord to help me. My roommate Rick could use some prayers also. He has been pretty sick for a while, I'm not sure how much longer he has. My good friend in San Diego had a hearing today. I'm not sure how it went but I'm praying that he gets another chance. Thank you Lord Jesus for all the things you have given me.