made it too my first ssa meeting today

I got up at 6:30 this morning and felt very much like going back to sleep till 8. I knew I had to wake up and go to this SSA meeting in North Hollywood. If I didn't I would have one more out of control week. It's strange to realize how screwed up and addicted to weird stuff I am. I have allot of different triggers. The last week that I have been in my addiction I am ashamed to say that I rarely thought of the Lord. This pains my heart. It shows where I put the Risen Lord on my list of priorities. He is great if I don't have any drugs or porn. This is all stuff I have to work on. I'm praying that the Lord will help me find a good sponsor. I'm also going to San Diego this weekend. I hope we don't hang out with too many women. I don't want to be tempted. I'm pretty tempted at the moment. Thank you Lord Jesus for the Love that you show for us your humble children. Please Lord Jesus my faith is not as strong as I want it to be but I still Love you with all that I have, please Lord grant me strength in you so  that I may say no to the things that will harm me and hide your Light from me. Peace be with you all brethren in Christ