Still Praying

My life is moving along a path that is not where I would like it to be. I'm not afraid because I know the Lord is watching out for me and many voices are praying for my safety and success. I ask for continual prayer, I have ran out of money and can't afford the rent where I'm currently staying. If I live I also need money since my car has broken down and I can't drive it. Life has became very interesting to say the least. Please continue to pray for me brothers and sisters in Christ like I pray for you. In our Risen Father's name all things are possible. Amen

Money problems, who doesn't have them?

Man has became dependant on money, I would say more so than God. It's the capitalist mantra, money makes everything better. I hope I don't sound like a socialist because I love making and spending money.  This time of year things become extra crazy, on top of the bills we have to pay just to live we also feel obligated to buy people things they probably don't even need. Life has became about feeling good right now, instead of about the future and the wonderful place our Lord has prepared for us. I've been living pretty close to the poverty line for the last couple of years, it isn't fun but the Lord always provides for me. Four days ago I was wondering about how I was going to pay my bills, let alone buy Christmas presents. I want to say I didn't worry, but I did, and then I would say a prayer and would feel better. Today I have money in the bank, bills are paid and I have enough left over for the two presents I want to buy. All I can say is God is great and he loves us and always takes care of us like the children that we are.

Blessed for What I Have

I can't say that things are ideal for me right now, but I have a strong faith that all is going to work out. I've had a few set backs in my professional life, so I've been praying allot that the Lord opens a new door for me. In the lives of people around me my friend Erin can use some prayers for some pressure she is under. I think this time of year we should be praying for everyone, there is so much pressure to afford stuff we don't really need. Our society has forgot what is important in life. My friend Tracy burned her foot last week, burns stink, I know from personal experience. Pray that she has a speedy recovery. My friend Zacarias still needs prayers for her Crohn's disease. Please send any prayer requests you might have!! Go in peace brother and sisters in Christ.

Please Lord take my Pride

I've been very prideful as of late, that mixed with my drug use has made me very angry and all about myself.  ask the Lord to take the pride and anger away from me. I'm a sinner who is not worthy of our Fathers redemption and yet I know he will always forgive me. He is the perfect Father, his love is above all else. In his name all things are possible. Please contact me with any prayer requests you may have.

The Lord is calling

I went to church really stoned on Sunday. I was on the welcome team and I talked to everyone who walked into the service. I also collected the tithes with another girl. I'm not sure for how long I was really high, I'm not really sure most of the time when I'm high. I enjoy the feeling though, I work on another level. This shames me that I always have to feel this way. At the moment I'm really high writing this, I need prayers. The service was great Pastor Joseph interviewed a women who runs an amazing congregation in Kenya. She said the Lord is changing lives in the heart of the worst slum in the world. The church I attend; Ecclesia, sends a team to Kenya every year, when they return they tell stories and it has always intrigued me. During these talks I've always had this image of having a small clothing business in Kenya. I think people become truly happy when they learn how to make things. With that in mind what she said next blew my mind. The church teaches all the uneducated how to sew dresses! Wow I have a team to make my clothes and they are believers like myself. Take a minute today and please pray for the people of Kenya.
The rest of the service was very interesting also. Pastor Joseph started a series called All In, this refers to us giving up our lives so we can gain eternal life. The service ended with one of my favorite passages, JOHN 12:23-26.

Jesus replied "The hour has come for the Son of Man to be glorified. I tell you the truth, unless a kernel of wheat falls to the ground and dies, it remains only a single seed. But if it dies, it produces many seeds. The man who loves his life will lose it, while the man who hates his life in this world will keep it for eternal life. Whoever serves me must follow me; and where I am, my servant will also be. My father will honor the one who serves me."

What a great passage. Prayer requests are always welcome. I found out recently a friend of mine's father is very sick with cancer. My friend Zacarias I had mentioned before is doing a little better and been able to leave the hospital. Go in peace brothers and sisters in Christ

the Lord's plan for us

Last night during my Alpha class we discussed to Lord's plan for us. Nicky Gumble gave quite a few examples in his life and in people he knew about the Lord putting people where they belong. I think my eyes have been closed too what the Lord wants from me. I feel like when I pray I'm just telling Jesus allot of things but I'm not really listening to his will. I need to slow down more and listen for the Lord. There is an idea that the Lord might have put in my head, but I'm not sure if it came from him though. So I'm going to pray on it and see what the Lord does about it.

I got word on Sunday about my friend Walter in Eureka, he is still alive and is staying at a homeless shelter. He told our mutual friend thanks for the prayer it seems to be working. For a guy who is not a believer I find that really amazing!! It just proves that all things are possible in our Risen Lord and Savior Jesus.

Two weekends from now the Alpha class is going on a retreat. I'm very excited, were going to be out there for about 24 hours. They have a ton of games and events too do but I think my plan is to find some where nice and just chill and enjoy the Lord's beautiful day.

Thanks to everyone for the prayers, peace be with you.

made it too my first ssa meeting today

I got up at 6:30 this morning and felt very much like going back to sleep till 8. I knew I had to wake up and go to this SSA meeting in North Hollywood. If I didn't I would have one more out of control week. It's strange to realize how screwed up and addicted to weird stuff I am. I have allot of different triggers. The last week that I have been in my addiction I am ashamed to say that I rarely thought of the Lord. This pains my heart. It shows where I put the Risen Lord on my list of priorities. He is great if I don't have any drugs or porn. This is all stuff I have to work on. I'm praying that the Lord will help me find a good sponsor. I'm also going to San Diego this weekend. I hope we don't hang out with too many women. I don't want to be tempted. I'm pretty tempted at the moment. Thank you Lord Jesus for the Love that you show for us your humble children. Please Lord Jesus my faith is not as strong as I want it to be but I still Love you with all that I have, please Lord grant me strength in you so  that I may say no to the things that will harm me and hide your Light from me. Peace be with you all brethren in Christ

obsessed with money

I have a hard time not thinking about money and the bills I have to pay. The worst part is I have plenty of money to pay everything but i still have a obsessive compulsion to make list and think about how I am going to spend every dollar. I ask the Lord to take this away from me. This was a quick entry, now back to work. Peace be with you